You don't need to grip it. It works for me. That's the whole point of being an individual. One size doesn't fit all. I've found a path which reconciles both sides of my nature. It works for me, but obviously not for you. As I said, we all plough our own furrow. That's how humans work. It's only the monotheistic religions imported to our lands that have tried to convince us otherwise. Danu and Lugh and Manannán are truer guides to me than Christ or Mohammed.