Okay, I am an insomniac. Tur, I know you know this because you have IMed me at 5 AM my time before while I was at school, or even here. Many other people across the pond know for this same reason. Ender knows because I force him to stay up and talk to me even though he's 2 hours behind me and has school in the morning.. yes, I am selfish. Back to the point. So, it seems I can only sleep under 3 conditions: 1. I have taken my sleeping meds that my psychiatrist gave me because of the insomnia (which complete mess me up, it's not fun and I hate them almost as much as I hate Mac/Apple). 2. It is light outside, or at least just beginning to be... yes, I know, vampirism *hiss*. 3. I am completely and utterly exhausted. I am currently #3, but you know what? I STILL CANNOT SLEEP. I got offline at a reasonable hour (a bit after 1 AM), but I am pretty darn scared of thunderstorms because Lincoln gets tornadoes a lot, so I got all hyped up and started collecting some irreplaceable belongings and put them in a bag that I call my "Oh Sh*t!" bag, for the occasions of tornadoes/flash floods. So I freaked out for about an hour because it was bad, I mean REALLY bad. At 2 AM it finally calmed down and I wrote in my journal for about an hour because I have to do that too to wind down anymore (I think too much, if y'all didn't notice).. and I was really really tired. I got back online quickly to check the price of something, and then I lied down. Here comes 4 AM and Rhiannon is still not asleep. It really upsets me. A lot. I could take my meds, but you don't even know what those things do to me. A lot of the time when I take it, I have night mares. It's also a drug used on psychotic people at higher doses (I was reassured that they weren't using it on me for that). Well, I am terribly sorry for getting this personal with you guys, but I just don't know how much more sleep I can go without. It's not anyone's fault either. I just can't sleep... ever. It's 4:25 AM, and I'm going to go try again because I have to be up by 10 AM to go turn in a job application and pick up more while I am out. I also have random planning to do and redo tomorrow. School's not on, I have no job, yet I am stressed. Thank you sleep for being an *******. Thanks for listening to me moan about something slightly unimportant once again guys. Love, Liv.