It's 2018. We're all very aware of its existence. Celebrity suicides get attention. Shows like 13 Reasons Why exist. Everyone shares mental illness awareness related posts on fb for a few days after someone kills themselves and then they move on while those of us who struggle are still here in the ether fighting our battles. If you know someone who struggles, please reach out to them. I personally struggle a lot. As most of you know, I have bipolar disorder/manic depression. I mention both names because not everyone knows they are the same thing. I experience extreme highs and extreme lows and sometimes mixtures of both. I do experience times where I feel "normal" (as in neuro-typical). Currently, I am struggling, which is why I have not been posting. During these times my focus has to go toward being able to get out of bed and go to work and trying to maintain what I hope is a "good" standard of motherhood for my daughter. So I am making this post to make you guys aware that I am not abandoning you all after just coming back. I am just not well. I think about you guys every single day and nothing makes me happier than to know that while I'm working on getting better, that when I am able to be active again, I'll have an active forum to come back home to, once again. I am also making this post to let those of you who also struggle with mental illness know that you are not alone. I'm here fighting the good fight right along with you and if you ever need anything I am a PM or a fb message away. It's very important to talk about mental health and de-stigmatize it so that we can lower suicide rates. You matter. You are important. You are more than your illness. You deserve to live, and you deserve to matter while you still breathe. I have a hard time putting things into words at times, so here is a poem I wrote to express this. To Escape and Be Escaped From: Reach Just keep on keeping on folks.